Monday, August 14, 2006

Deafblind Episcopalian

August 14
Times I forget how to title.

Somehow my typing skills are giving me problems or maybe its just my thinking skills. Iforget to title waht I'm writing, silly of me. It just sometimes feels like losing my sight makes me forget to do basic thngs like put headins and titles. I type now using a keyboard that is in braille. I never learned to type, I just hunt and peck. Now it just so much slower. Any way I poster earlier about the heat and what I've learned this summer. I am slowly learning braille ( grade 1 ). sometimes I seem to be making great progress and then at other times I struggle to understand a phrase because I'm trying to connect the letters into one word. Reading is just not like that. So I'm slow. I feel like I'm back in grade school. Most kids start at 6, I'm starting over at 59.I wont be 60 until the 15th of next month. Wonder if I'm just to young to catch on quickly and when I actually turn 60 it will be easy. Just have to wait and see.

Deafblind Episcopalian: Deafblind Episcopalian: May 2006

Its hot in August in Oklahoma. I've learned so much since losing most of my sight. I am feeling more. Wind, sun, presence of people. I never noticed before that when we come into a physical nearness with another person there is an awarness of their presence. People seem to emmit some form of spirit that is tangible if we try to feel it. Its different for each person. Some presences are light and some are heavy and the size of the person sometime belies the size of the presence. With some people you can be near them and a feeling of well being just flows from them. Its very peaceful. Others present a feeling of confusion or distraction. Its not somethin you can hear its just something you feel.
My Doctor's told me to find a way to eliminate stress in my life. That's hard to do when you can not see or hear. But ocasionaslly, I have times that cause me to feel a since of peace and well being. Wonder what people feel like when it is cool? If I wait a bit, I'll soon know.